But what I am actually doing is washing and cleaning myself, applying fresh silver-lined bandages (it takes a lot!), and cleaning up the debris and strange residue that is always left behind in the bathtub after a detox bath or shower. The amount of strange things that come out of my body is surreal, and I can only show photos to prove it. And even these are disturbing to me.
I had neglected this blog for too long, since the facial wounds and scarring cannot be covered with make-up, so people often stare at my face and look away. I have long since stopped caring about what other people think, and lately, I have started to even stop caring about what I think about my own self as well.
However, yesterday I saw my new doctor at the clinic in north Oakland that I visit, which as a few doctors, one physician's assistant (PA), a registered nurse practitioner (RNP), and medical students doing their field work hours and practice by doing the intake paperwork, taking blood pressure, pulse, and making sure all documentation is up to date. I've seen several doctors come and go, but they all work under Dr. H. G. Watson, son of James A. Watson, who founded the James A. Watson Wellness Center (JAWWC), which takes every kind of insurance, and even non-insured patients who are indigent get free County Medical coverage under the CMSP insurance plan.
A new doctor, a young, caring man named Dr. Snipes began working there within the last 3 or so months. I always make my appointments with him now, since he is the first doctor to physically examine my symptoms, lesions, disgusting debris, and he listened patiently to my entire description of the things I have to suffer on a daily basis due to this condition, and he takes me very seriously. This is so refreshing! He is also the first to order any type of labwork, and he wants to see the photos I have taken over the last 4 months documenting various stages of this condition. He actually wants to see the samples I have collected as well as any video I took with my cell phone of things "migrating" under my skin, visibly. No one else has shown any interest and has given me a diagnoses just listening to my summary before cutting me off and referring me to someone else.
He also was the one to recommend HibiClens, a surgical hand wash and prep wash with really strong antimicrobial and antiseptic actions, and this over the counter cleaner has really helped more than anything else, except for the various forms of silver antibiotic treatments. My fever also broke today and most of the "Morgellons" (what I call the pathogen, whatever it is. I do not know if it is bacterial, fungal, viral, a syndrome, or condition, but I do know what the pathogen looks like), and my body purged a lot of this crap out of my skin. It was a long night, and I still need to get to bed, but I am inspired and feeling so much better, finally able to think clearly and felt the need to share this moment with others.
I am going to sleep now after spending about 12 hours working on cleaning all the dead material and pathogens that my body began to expel after fever waves and chills that finally broke. I will continue this post when I get some rest.
This photo was taken to show the dead debris being expelled from an area I didn't know was even affected! And notice the tell-tale white thick "string" (not a word I would use, but is used often by other patients) sticking out of a hole. This thing actually runs under my skin for several inches, all zig-zagged, creating this pock-mark effect that only appears when my skin is expelling massive amounts of dead debris.
But for those of you that have the Morgellons in their skin, I want to say: THERE IS HOPE. THERE WILL BE A CURE. Stay tuned!
